These are some of the feelings I had after taking a pregnancy test on Monday.
11/26/2012
What a great day and it's not even noon!!! All last week I became more sure every day that I was pregnant. Finally I couldn't stand the suspense any longer and ran to the Dollar Store this morning with Bekah to get a test. I came home and took it and felt so sad when I didn't see the positive line come in. I took a minute to read the box out of boredom and when I looked at the test again there was a very, very faint line!! I quickly called Garrett who was between classes and told him I was 80% sure I was pregnant. Luckily I had gotten 2 tests so I can take another one tomorrow to make sure! I quickly took out my handy little due date estimation calendar and came up with the due date of July 27th. Now those of you who have been pregnant during the summer before may start feeling bad for me, but this is a prayer lovingly heard and mercifully answered for us. We had several criteria we wanted to meet with our next pregnancy and it fits all of them!! They are:
1) Garrett will be away for field camp from the beginning of May till sometime in June, so we wanted the baby due after June.
2) We didn't want to have the pregnancy cover more than one fiscal year so we don't have to pay two deductibles. (My doctor recommends coming in for the first visit between 10 and 16 weeks which will be January or February.)
3) I'm working really hard for the next year and a half to get my bachelors's degree. I'll be taking classes full-time in the spring and summer semesters and then only have to take 6-9 credits the next fall and spring to graduate. Summer semester ends the middle of July and fall semester starts the end of August. So I'll have my baby right in between semesters and be able to complete my degree without missing school to have a baby.
I had been praying that the baby would come then, but we only started trying the end of September, so I felt like it was a lot to ask and knew that it was unlikely for me to get pregnant after trying for only 2 months. I told the Lord my situation and put it in his hands to schedule it how he wants it. I told him I would get my degree if he saw fit, or I would quit school if he felt I should stay home with the kids instead. There's no doubt in my mind of what I need to do now. He planned it so perfectly so that I can do both. Tears of gratitude keep pouring down my face as I realize how gracious, loving, and generous my Heavenly Father is. The next year and a half will be pretty tricky and trying, but the Lord has already answered so many prayers that I have no doubt that as I move forward with faith he will continue answering prayers and working things out more perfectly than I ever could.
I told Bekah there was a baby in my belly and ever since then she has spontaneously patted my belly and said "Baby in there!" So cute! Also, I was feeling very grateful so I decided to say a prayer. Bekah looked at me and said "prayer?" I said yes and asked if she wanted to pray. She said yes so I walked her through her first prayer. She was so proud and happy that she said "Again!" as soon as she said amen! What a sweet daughter I have! That moment made me even more excited to be having a second child!
